Worshiper. Reader. Daydreamer.
Thank you very much. May I know if I know you personally?
All I had for you.
It exerted no effort. There’s this authority that exudes from you even when you don’t say a thing.
It swiftly took me over when you talked about the God I love.
It slowly but surely won me when you efficiently did the things asked of you and beyond.
It did not do anything, it came naturally by just knowing you.
It won me when you’ve always been there when I needed you, and even brought along Comfort and Security with you.
It fought so hard and it succeeded. It conquered me.
You’ve wasted it all.
Because I cried.
Because I’m angry.
Because I felt used.
Because I knew I am not respected.
Because I’m disappointed.
Because I’ve learned to hate you.
I feel empty. But I’m okay.
Fortunately, I stopped expecting anything from you for a very long time already.
Fortunately, I’ve tried so hard not to love you.
Fortunately, I give more value to what I’m thinking than what I’m feeling.
Fortunately, I recognized soon enough the signs of endings.
Fortunately, I ceased waiting for you.
Fortunately, I’m learning to let go and wait on Him.
Fortunately, I am strong because my strength is coming from God.
"Okay" won’t be enough to describe how I am.
Sorrows will die of drowning in my tears.
Love will have a new name.
I will be more than happy.
This I’m sure of. This I promise.
Alice In Wonderland
You’ve been warm, you’ve been cold
I’ve been in high, I’ve been in down low
You’re coming, you’re going
I’m running, I’m hiding
You let go of the oar from time to time
I want to go on until the end
The boat is sinking
The boat is still floating
If it goes down
If it stays
Where do I go?
Where do i go?
On their way to you
There came the wind
They were blown so far
I lost them
I don’t know where
To find them isn’t easy
I couldn’t catch them
I am hoping
Someday they’ll come to you
Or that you’ll see them
And realize that
For a very long time already
They are on their way to you