Are you there yet? Have you been there? Are you still there? Because I want you to know that I'm almost there. If you're about to leave or you already left, will you at least let me hope that you'll just trace your way back, and maybe, just maybe, we'll meet half way for me to change your mind.
Ikaw. Oo, ikaw pa rin.
Kausapin mo naman ako. Usap lang naman. Kahit hindi pa closure kung hindi ka pa handa dun. Tutal, napagtanto ko, sa totoo lang pala, hindi pa din ako handa dun dahil ikaw pa din ang gusto ko.
Kung hindi na ako ang gusto mo, e ‘di
"Sorry to me, naunahan mo akong makamove on."
nalang. Pero, hindi naman kasi ito contest ‘di ba? Hindi naman ito tungkol sa kung sino ang mas nagmahal o kung sino ang natalo. Hindi naman ganoon e, unless, pinanghahawakan pa din natin ang pride natin.
E wala e. It defined me once, but I already realized, ang dami ko palang pinalagpas na pagkakataon nang dahil dun. Lalo ka na, ikaw ngayon ang dahilan kung bakit ako handang i-give up ang pride ko. (Or na-give up ko na ata matagal na.)
At kung naka move on ka na, what the food naman, tulungan mo naman ako maka move on din. ‘Di ba sabi ko naman sa’yo wala akong alam sa love-love na ito? At hanggang ngayon? Wala padin.
E WALA E.
'Di ba teacher ka din? Ano ba? Iiwan mo nalang ako sa leksyon na ito hindi tinatapos at sinisigurong natutunan ko na lahat? Hindi ba kasama ang either happy ending o moving on dun?
Nag-aaral ako para sa LET ngayon at hindi ko alam kung anong pilosopiya sa edukasyon ang pinanghahawakan mo. Seryoso!
Ano na? Usap lang e. Hindi naman kita aawayin.
Ang sama mo kasi e.
Pero yun nga, gusto pa din kita. Mahal nga kita e. Ikaw lang e, ayaw mo naman.
Thank you very much. May I know if I know you personally?
All I had for you.
It exerted no effort. There’s this authority that exudes from you even when you don’t say a thing.
It swiftly took me over when you talked about the God I love.
It slowly but surely won me when you efficiently did the things asked of you and beyond.
It did not do anything, it came naturally by just knowing you.
It won me when you’ve always been there when I needed you, and even brought along Comfort and Security with you.
It fought so hard and it succeeded. It conquered me.
You’ve wasted it all.
Because I cried.
Because I’m angry.
Because I felt used.
Because I knew I am not respected.
Because I’m disappointed.
Because I’ve learned to hate you.
I feel empty. But I’m okay.
Fortunately, I stopped expecting anything from you for a very long time already.
Fortunately, I’ve tried so hard not to love you.
Fortunately, I give more value to what I’m thinking than what I’m feeling.
Fortunately, I recognized soon enough the signs of endings.
Fortunately, I ceased waiting for you.
Fortunately, I’m learning to let go and wait on Him.
Fortunately, I am strong because my strength is coming from God.
"Okay" won’t be enough to describe how I am.
Sorrows will die of drowning in my tears.
Love will have a new name.
I will be more than happy.
This I’m sure of. This I promise.
Alice In Wonderland